from one of my most favourite-est movies ever haha

Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away. - Hitch (Will Smith)

Dear moon, why can we see you during the day time?
is it because your lonely and want to be seen?
well dont worry, everytime im on the road
i look up trying to see if i can find you
that way you will know theres someone looking for you
although the sun if favoured by everyone
and much brighter then you during the day time
but remember the sun needs some compassion to
but when the sun goes down
its your time to shine my friend
so dont feel down if you cant shine brightly for us
because on the other side of the world you bring light to their nights
and lift their dark, gloomy nights with your bright warm shine
so dont dont worry moon
even if its day time, i will just think the sun is you
because everybody loves the sun
and there isnt much love for you
so thats why i cant wait till night fall
so i can see you shine brightly in the night sky
and make my wish at 11:11 under your bright warm light

I

I am Zac
I am in High School
I tend to consider myself awesome
I know i am
I am lazy
I am ninja when i want to be
I am doing okay in school
I am not struggling to much
I only struggle when i am around certain people
I make wishes
I wish at 11:11 at night
I believe i will have a good day after if i do
I hope they come true
I will protect those dearest to me with everything
I got
I am always there for the people i love
I do love
I want to be loved
I hope one day i will
I always put certain people ahead in stead of myself
I just think those people mean alot to me
I think of them more then
I do myself
I know i cant live without them
I cant do anything without them
I dont trust myself when i am alone
I get thoughts about hurting myself
I am not proud of it
I am scared of it
I want to be healed from this desease
I need someones help
I trust only few people with my thoughts
I keep their secrets a secret
I would never tell a single soul
I am not quite sure on how to tell my feelings
I am scared of the outcomes from my stupid feeling
I wish i never have feelings sometimes
I would be a neutral person
I would be in pain alot
I wouldnt be in missery
I wouldnt be depressed
I wouldnt think of you that much
I am not sure why i do now
I already know the answer
I have acceptd it mentally
I havnt acceptd it in my subcoincious
I am confussed and lost
I dont know what to do
I see a knife or some sort of blade
I start to get thoughts, bad thoughts
I fight to overcome them
I try not to give in to it
I sometimes wonder maybe it would be for the best
I am not sure
I just dont know
I want to escape the pain
I want escape it all
I know if i go
I will miss you to much
I still just want to disapear
I am just weak
I cant stand the pain
I think its unbearable
I feel like a empty shell of a person
I smile but sometimes i dont mean it
I smile to hide the fact that i am in pain
I just dont want others to see how i really am
I know only a few people know who i really am
I just cant seem to get you out of my mind
I never knew these feelings were that serious
I try not to think about it to much
I try not to let the feelings take over me
I am having abit of trouble moving on
I am being crushed on the inside slowly cause of it
I have been told that oranges are good to eat when in depression
I eat them more frequently now adays
I am just a wreck at the moment
I am not sure what to do or belive in
I am only sane because of the aid of music
I just want to know how it feels
I want to experience it
I dont know if it will last long
I am not sure if i will be given a chance
I just want to know how it feels
I sometimes get teary
I havnt shed a tear in over 8 years
I am just not sure on anything anymore
I need some guidance
I wish you can help me
I need you right now
I will just keep looking forward
I just want to find happiness
I want to smile for my own sake and mean it
I just wish you could see
I think you have partialy figured me out
I want to know what you think
I just want you to know how much you mean to me
I appriciate everything you have done for me
I thank you for always being there for me
I want you to know that you are Amazing, Awesome and Adorable
I really cant thank you enough
I think you are beautiful, so dont cover it up with named products and glam
I think you are just fine the way you are
I blush a little everytime i see you smile
I melt everytime we hug
I feel like there isnt a thing in the world that could go wrong when i am with you
I really cant express what you mean to me
I just hope the above mean something
I must end this now
I cant think anymore at this time
I wil say this before i go
I would freeze time itself, so that i can be with you forever in the moment